Please don’t forget about me
I can’t be upset you need time away from me. I understand. It hurt my feelings though that I was aware that you were purposefully not making time for me. But you told me that. And that’s okay. Friends don’t need to see each other every day, but I don’t think ignoring me for a week was appropriate either. The days here are kinda long. But go by fast. But while its day, I don’t really understand things and I’m confused and I’m sad and I don’t want to be confused and I don’t want to be sad.
I don’t want to be told to talk to someone. I want to be alone. Leave me alone.
I’m being whiney. Stop being whiney. This sounds more angry than I am. I guess I have mixed feelings. I always have mixed feelings.
I’m afraid to be left.
Please, don’t leave me.
I am a shitty friend to the people that are good to me and a good friend to the people that are shitty to me.
I feel like a little girl with a silly crush when ur around and I just want u to like kiss my forehead or something lame
Being around you makes me happy. Cute, short, happy interactions. Always a little awkward, though. I like that. I think we are both sad and a little confused and I want to be around you more. I hope you make an effort to keep me in your life; I am too shy to.
I realized I am queen of exaggeration. If someone doesnt text me for a day that doesn’t mean we’re not friends, or that they hate me or whatever. Things are normal. And I am dumb. And I’m glad I have people in my life that will tell me when I am being dumb. Thank you.
Having different people around me is refreshing. Having alone time is too. I’m trying to have alone time that I value and don’t feel sad during. I’m working on it.
I’m still working on me. I guess thats obvious because I’m still doing this. I’m glad I was pushed into this. I hope whoever I become is someone I will like, someone open to trying new things.
I’m trying to channel my energies into better things.
But I still woke up at 5 AM to feel anxious and not knowing what to do.